Halloween is for kids.

I'm choking back tears as I drive to work at the strip club. My phone alerts going off with pictures of my friends, my age, not in slutty costumes but warm goofy ones, showing off their cute kids In the cute costumes they stayed up all night making or worked over time to buy. It's 7:30 and some of them are already carrying home their exhausted and/or sugar crashed little ones after just a tiny bit of trick-or-treating. 

Holidays were made for kids. Decorations, music, outfits... We do all this to provide te young ones with happy memories of togetherness. 

Right now I feel so lonely. No one to make a costume for, no one to provide a magical spooky holiday experience for. No trick or treaters bouncing with excitement at my door. There's really no reason for me to celebrate Halloween. It just another Thursday.

 

Tonight the life I have, and the life I want, are two very different things. 

I don't know when I suddenly grew up but apparently I'm an adult now and I feel like I'm missing out on all the best parts of being a grown up. 

Samantha & James: Sechelt Pier Adventure

We ran away to a little cabin in Robert's Creek to "get away from it all" for 4 days. We worked almost every waking hour that we were on "vacation" but we did manage to sneak in some us time while the cameras were re-charging and the computers were rendering and uploading. Here's a peek at what little time we did take just for ourselves.
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This is CHRISTOPHER LEAF

Our short film about life as a gay man
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This week on A GAY COLLAB we're talking about gay news in our area. I visited Roberts Creek BC and met a young gay man by the name of Christopher Leaf... This is his story.

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Samantha & James: Jack O'Lantern LOVE

Photo Shoot - unedited

I had a photo shoot last night with Grant Mcavoy/Image Werx. Usually I just see the final best images once their touched up a week of so later. I always think.. That's a great photo but I don't really look like that. 

This time we simply downloaded the pictures directly from the camera to my laptop (which photographers usually don't do) and I got to see me.. Just me, as is, sans photo shop. 

And I was pretty delighted with what I saw. 

It's terrible how hard we can be on ourselves. The image I have of myself in my head and the images captured on film are so different. 

And I wonder why? 

I guess because there's so many pics of me photo shopped, or edited via Instagram or some other alteration made that I just got skeptical and stated to believe I was a mess and needed every image touched up. 

Sigh. I'm pretty hard on myself in my own mind. And after seeing the raw images from last nights shoot, I realized that the negativity I put myself thru has been unnecessary.

I'm ok. And I should probably start telling myself that. 

PORN with a side of Love

It's been almost 3 months since I dove into the world of adult films head first, holding James' hand all the way. I never would have had the courage to start this adventure if it wasn't for him. I should clarify that by telling you that I approached him with the idea of becoming porn stars. There's few times in life when you meet your match. That one person who alone is pretty amazing but together you create the unstoppable team. The kind of person who makes anything possible. James Wire and I are those people. We're totally different but somehow we fit together perfectly and fuel each others creative fire. It's been a Non stop adventure. Our goal is to make couple friendly, sex positive, adult films and show a connection, a love, between the two people on screen no matter how kinky or bizarre the scene. 

I've watched a LOT of porn and the "Any girl, any hole, any time" theme has been nagging on my soul. I've had boyfriends emulate what they see on screen and the loveless sex, I feel, doesn't need to be encouraged. Is it possible to make porn with a positive message? 

Absolutely!

Is there an audience that gives a damn?

Gawd I hope so! 

There's something for everyone and not everyone is going to like our films, but for the young people secretly downloading porn when their parents aren't looking... Well, I hope they 'accidentally' find our videos because at least the message (between extreme close ups and cumshots) is one of love and respect. 

We must have been lovers in a previous life because the chemistry is mind blowing. Each video gets more intense than the last, and you're lucky because we're not stopping anytime soon! 

 

After hosting and performing at the Taboo Sex Show, The Adult Entertainment Awards, The Virtual Adult Entertainment Awards sponsored by The Naked Truth and X-BIZ. James Wire walked into my world on June 26th and gave me the confidence to be on the receiving end of those awards... and I still can't find my pants! See us at the 2013 Hump Film Fest! 

Life

From birth to death 

It's just like this