Just Grind - Official Music Video - by Samantha Mack & Erron Sweeney

Just Grind:

is an entire song about a girl taking control and getting lost in the moment with her love interest... Until you hear the bridge when it's a dudes point of view. Two very different views on this romantic moment and only one can come out on top. The video starts with a demanding bar owner and somewhere in the middle girls toss their panties on stage while the men offer flowers and room keys. An angry wife, a sock on a door knob... Is it possible for anyone to live happily ever after? 

Written and Produced by the Samantha Mack and Erron Sweeney

Video Features some of Vancouver's finest!!!

Ryan Percy, Paul Tryl, Aloma Steele, Winnie Chan, Spencer Densmore, Mistress T, Scarlet Moore, Josh Rimer, Andrew Lacelle Dis, Andrea Nancy, Erron Sweeney and Samantha Mack With Special behind the scenes THANKS to Nadine Lesperance, Payton Perkins and Gwyn Roberts.

Mmmmm ya, you feel that?!?

Tonight at work one of my friends was hanging out in the DJ booth talking about a girl scrap she got into on the weekend. I can't even remember what it was about. It's not the first story about her trying to finish off an argument in the proverbial "outside." 

I gave her my wisdom between announcing strippers on the mic.

"Girl, love more, hit less. Here, hold my hand. You feel that? That's love. Mmmmm feels good!"

Now I was being kinda silly about it but the message was true. What she said next stopped me in my silly tracks.

"I forgot what that feels like" she said as she held my hand with both of hers. 

Silence

I got up and hugged her like I've never hugged anyone before. Wishing that somehow my excess love and peacefulness would be hers for the taking. 

Painting a Piano & My Boobs

Of course I painted the top of my baby grand piano then reached across it dragging my tits through the wet paint. And of course I didn't notice for about two hours after walking my dog around the block and wondering why people were staring so much more than normal.

#thisismyreallife

Why am I painting a piano? 

For a music video obviously! 

I've been writing songs with Erron Sweeney and in prep for my trip to LA to vlog with the super stars, I'm padding my YouTube channel with funny and fierce videos that display my randomly insane creativity.

Screen shot of Erron and videographer Nate Butcher, from our first music video that we had to complete in under 3 hours.

So 3 new videos will be out before August when I'm shaking babies and kissing hands at VidCon ;)

Vote 4 Me: 

is about how competitions these days have nothing to do with skill and everything to do with online popularity. It will feature a beauty pageant in a bar full of sleazy dudes... And I can't promise that everyone wearing a skirt in the pageant is a girl ;) The contestants have unique "talents" and they don't play fair. The judges are slimy.. Will they choose the prettiest girl or the one who knows "what it takes" to get to the top?

PS: ShayCarl is in this video too ;)

Just Grind: 

is an entire song about a girl taking control and getting lost in the moment with her love interest... Until you hear the bridge when it's the dudes point of view. Two very different views on this romantic moment and only one can come out on top.

The video starts with a demanding bar owner and somewhere in the middle girls toss the panties on stage while the men offer their room keys. An angry wife, a sock on a door knob... Is it possible for anyone to live happily ever after? 

Horror Porn: 

I was just in a Horror Movie called "No Pets Allowed" (Blue Girl Productions)

when I found out that people were googling "Horror" and "Porn" to find Info for this movie, I blurted out, "I'm gonna make a song called horror porn" ...and then I did. :)

The video is more of a comedy than the title would let you believe. The poor wanker gets exactly what he googled for... And the girl in her lingerie, wandering out into the woods in the middle if the night to see where the creepy chainsaw sound is coming from... well unlike you're average horror films her screams aren't caused by terror. She's not afraid of zombies - she likes her men stiff! 

My bros (TheGrangerBros.com) always say, you make a movie 3x once in the script, once while filming, and again while editing... I really hope these turn out the way I imagined them. Filming 3 totally different videos in 3 weeks is absolutely insane. And I can't wait! 

Luckily I have an incredibly talented team behind me and a ton of amazing friends willing to volunteer their time and their skills. 

Do I have cancer?

It's been 5 LONG nights since the dr rushed me in for tests to see if I have leukemia. I'm sitting in the office agin now waiting for my text results.

My heart is pounding like I'm on a roller coaster...

I've kept busy all week and refused to think too much about it. I've been focused on enjoying what IS going on in my life not the "what ifs" 

One thing I've noticed by blogging about this experience is that there is a TON of people in this world that wish me well. People I hardly know are sendin me their love through messages and comments, Facebook, YouTube, Twitter, vine. 

It reminds me of the quote from hug nation.com 

"THE WORLD WOULD RATHER HUG YOU THAN HURT YOU"

My world and my Internet world have have been hugging the heck outta me!

Fingers crossed! 

***UPDATE***

My white blood cell count is back up. My immune system is working again and they said leukemia is HIGHLY unlikely.

However they did see something in my X-rays so now I'm waiting on a CT scan to determine the next move. 

I am so relieved. And so thankful for being surrounded by so many loving supportive friends (and Internet friends who I have yet to meet) the world really is full of amazing people!

This whole experience has given me an attitude of gratitude! 

Thank You

Fan Mail!

Hi

I am a fan obviously. Have been for quite some time. I enjoy how diverse and creative you are and your humor is infectious. I've never reached out like this to anyone even remotely famous do to the fact that most people of your caliber are close minded but you don't seem like that at all. You interact with your fans. You share your real life with people you don't even know with out worrying about the prejudice or the slander that can come with that. I applaud your fearlessness and I simply wanted to say hello to allow you to become familiar with at least one fan who absolutely enjoys your openness.

Thanks,
Smitty

This made my day Smitty! First you called me remotely famous!!! (Yes!!! I've finally made it!! My ego thanks you!!)

The end.

Just kidding. ;)

What I loved about Vlogger Fair last weekend is that it gave me an opportunity to open my mouth! 

So many people were staring - to the point where even Josh Rimer was feeling awkward being seen with me. People were pointing their cameras at me and looking away like I wouldn't notice. Ugh :(

But I took the opportunity to talk to people. I just Walked up to the awkwardly placed cameras and said

 "HI IM SAM"

The people busted "secretly" aiming their cameras at me ended up chatting the night away with me!

And in the end, those people were awesome!!!! Way cooler than I originally expected ;) (and I hope they'd say the same about me)

In general they don't know how funny they look when they try to sneak pics. I never say no to pictures. I know that my boobs are considered a novelty item to most people. And i know I'm easily recognizable. So just take a deep breath an ask for a photo. I promise I won't bite. (That's costs extra) ;)

I share my real life online cause... Well, why the hell not! I'm NOT so special that the daily crazy events I experience are only happening to me. If we share our stories and speak up, maybe just maybe, other people who are having similar experiences won't feel alone. 

The world is small and we're all in this together. I welcome our similarities. 

Everyone has a story and I bet yours is amazing!

If we stop judging each other and just say Hi we'll find out that the world is a much friendlier place than we expected. 

And... How can you learn from my mistakes if I never tell you about them ;) 

One day is all we have

Live one day at a time. Cause that is all we have. 

I got x-rays today, my chest, neck and head. They said I should have the results back by Friday. 

They gave me a puffer to help me breathe but i don't notice any difference. 

 

So now all I do is wait...

My girlfriend called and randomly we started talking about taking her house guest to whistler. So tomorrow before work were heading to the mountain... For no real reason, except that She wants to show off the view to her house guest and I have a jeep - So it just made sense for us to all go together. Ill never understand why people drive 2 hours just to see a view. But all I could think of is, "why not?"

What else was I going to do with my day of waiting? Sit in my house and watch daytime television?

A random trip to whistler and meeting new people is WAY better than letting my mind wander at home for 24 hours.

Funny how it just lined up perfectly. 

Everything is exactly how it should be. 

If you have an opportunity take it. Why?

Why not? Life is for living. Not sitting on the couch. Enjoy today, cause today is all we have.

You're testing my blood for WHAT?!?!

RING RING

"This is a message for Samantha Mack. We need you to come in and talk about you blood test results ASAP!"

I was in Seattle with Josh Rimer for the weekend for Vlogger Fair. I lived out one of my biggest dreams when I was on stage encouraging and supporting and motivating people to be Bold and fearless  as they Vlog their stories. It was a dream come true to be welcome for my thoughts and not just for my boobs. Anyhow....

As soon as I was back in Canada I made an appointment to talk about my blood test results. 

I've been tolerably sick since April 9th. I lost my voice and have trouble breathing. I easily get fevers and I'm drained of energy much more easily than ever before. I figured I was getting old and working up to 20 hours some days. I thought I was just run down.

Turns out I'm running low on white blood cells. At 5pm yesterday the dr set me up with appointments to see I I have leukemia.

At 6pm I had to drive out to walnut Grove for head shots with one of my favorite actors. By the way if you need head shots, photographer Jonny Ray is my secret weapon.

We headed back to my place to update the acting agency with the pertinent info and sign contracts. I was lost in the tiny details for hours and hours.

Then we were finished.... it hit me. As we were getting ready to pack up and leave I thought, "what the hell do I do now? Just wait till morning and somehow not worry about possibly having leukemia?!?! WTF!"

Late into the night without my saying a word, the actor I had been working with randomly piped up with inspirational thoughts and logical peaceful ways to deal with worry and stress. Somehow he knew exactly what to say at exactly the right times. 

I finally fell asleep feeling such peace and love, totally ok with whatever the universe had next for me.

Such an incredible feeling! 

And what made it even better was the fact that a dude was being so sweet to me without guile. If you've read my other blogs about dudes talking to me late into the night, it usually ends with me hating them for being horny and disrespectful. 

This morning I was up and at the hospital at 9am for more blood work and tomorrow morning ill be back for x-rays. I also have the option of getting cancer gene testing at the cancer clinic. So I guess we'll just see what happens next.

One of the things we talked about late last night was living in the now. And now is perfect. I be a fool to ruin a perfect moment by worrying about something I have no control over. 

"Everything is exactly how it should be"

Pic of me getting ready this past weekend for Vlogger Fair's TRON party.